It's my favorite holiday. It never relates to me lol, but still my favorite.
This is a picture of me getting ready for an "outing" with a young man.
Hair curled, makeup case open, leg up for dramatic effect.
He pursued me.
He started doing everything right. I didn't even want to give him my number just because I was going through a lot at the time and dating was the last thing on my mind, but he was so sweet and persistent.
He called and texted me everyday. Treated me like a princess. I thought hey, he's not being an ass like the other ones LOL.
But once he thought he had me, he stopped putting in effort. He started wanting sex that I wasn't going to give to him. I stopped investing my energy and now we don't talk anymore. Fun fact: 99.9% of the guys I talk to don't move on to anything because I won't have sex with them.
I'm 19 and I've never been in a relationship. I've had situationships, but never relationships.
I'm literally so young, yet at one point I found myself saying I was done with dating before I had even begun.
Guys usually tell me that I'm "pushy, demanding, and do too much" when I actually try. Yet, when forget they exist that's when they want me.
I read this tweet that said "Girls in their 20s be saying they're done with dating, but haven't even experienced it yet. They've been dealing with little boys still trying to get their lives together."
That made me look at things from a different perspective. In college you see a lot with relationships. Everyone is still getting themselves together.
This is my time to figure out what I want in a man and who I am. I want someone confident, sweet, gentle, understanding of mental health, to be my peace during my storms, who likes to cuddle, someone who doesn't think I'm doing too much because I like them, and the list goes on.
I'm willing to meet my Mr. halfway as well. He might not have all of the qualities on my "list", but I'm open.
At the same time, I don't care about being in a relationship lol, so what am I talking about?